I’m pretty sure I’ve mentioned my ADDled brain before. I was diagnosed with ADhD 20 years ago when I was 27. I was struggling in my Master’s TESOL program and school had never been a struggle for me academically before. I was also seeing a therapist at the time who recommended I read Driven To Distraction by Dr. Hallowell.
That was a turning point in my life. I went on Ritalin, I quit smoking, I started running, I received my degree, and I started teaching. When I switched Psychiatrists, because my awesome doctor decided to leave private practice for research, I was dismayed. I felt I was no longer getting the help I needed. So I quit my psychiatrist and I quit Ritalin. I managed with excercise, diet and yoga. I was handling it pretty well. I began to accomplish things I never thought I could.
Then six years ago we moved from New Jersey to Baltimore. I no longer had a network of friends and family nearby. I had to drive more often and everything spiralled down into chaos. I stopped eating an optimal diet, I wasn’t excercising consistently and the brain fog set in deep.
Now here we are moving again. I got the big stuff out of the way and now I am running all over the house not sure where to begin, what to do, how to get it all done in time. I am also going to bed late, oversleeping and not eating an optimal diet. I do not feel optimal. If I think about it I do not even feel okay. I’m just squishy and fatigued.
I make promises that tomorrow I will start working out, but tomorrow I oversleep. I am not running because my knees are still killing me. I tried to make a doctor’s appointment, but they did not have anything available until after we moved.
I’ll just wait. I’ll ride this wave until I come out on the otherside. Then I will get back into a routine and taking care of myself. I will find a doctor to check my cholesterol, my knees, the sacs on my eyelids and my fatigue. Life is not constant and this will pass and I will be on course again. I don’t ever know my destiny, but that’s where the fun is.
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